Alice once met a deity in the mountains.
Deity: I have the seeds of all the flowers in the world. Which do you want?
Alice: I want to have the most beautiful flower in the world.
Deity gave her a seed.
Deity: Plant this, and it will bloom in a year.
Alice happily took the seed home and plant it in a pot. However she didn't take good care of it. She didn't water it daily, didn't put fertilizers, left it in the rain or left it under the unbearable hot sun.
One year later, the plant bloom into a flower. But it was limp and dull, definitely not anywhere beautiful, lest to say the most beautiful. At this moment, the deity appeared.
Deity: Do you like the flower?
Alice: No. You lied to me. It looked so ugly, how can it be the most beautiful flower in the world?
Deity: It IS the seed of the most beautiful flower. But you didn't give it the basic care, so even if it should have been the most beautiful, it would still grow out this way.
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Betty once met a deity in the mountains.
Deity: I have the seeds of all the flowers in the world. Which do you want?
Betty: I want the seed of my favourite flower.
Deity: But it is not the most beautiful flower in the world.
Betty: It's okay.
Deity gave her a seed.
Deity: Plant this, and it will bloom in a year.
Betty happily took the seed home and plant it in a pot. She took extremely good care of it.
One year later, the plant bloom into a flower. It was strong and radiant. At this moment, the deity appeared.
Deity: Do you like the flower?
Betty: Yes! Even if this may not be the most beautiful flower in the world, yet with its healthiness and brightness, it will definitely outshine any supposedly more beautiful flowers(like Alice's).
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Cathy once met a deity in the mountains.
Deity: I have the seeds of all the flowers in the world. Which do you want?
Cathy: I just want an ordinary flower.
Deity: But it is not the most beautiful flower in the world.
Cathy: It's okay.
Deity gave her a seed.
Deity: Plant this, and it will bloom in a year.
Cathy happily took the seed home and plant it in a pot. She took good care of it as she should.
One year later, the plant bloom into a flower. It looked like any other ordinary nice-looking healthy flower. At this moment, the deity appeared.
Deity: Do you like the flower?
Cathy: Yes. It may not be the most beautiful flower. But to me, it is the most beautiful flower in this world. Because it has all my efforts and care on it.
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At the end of Year 2005 now, your flowers may have turned out to be like Alice's, Betty's or Cathy's, or other D's, E's......etc. But take heart.
Year 2005 is over!
May the Year 2006 be a new year for everyone for a new beginning of a new everything. May all make good use of 2006 to plant your flowers properly.
Remember to be diligent and water the plants daily and take good care of it. The most beautiful flowers shall be waiting for you at the end of 2006!
But do take note, some pretty flowers still need the help of other less pretty flowers to make them look prettier. So even if you'd a less pretty flower, don't worry too much. There's still Year 2006! Anyway, Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, isn't it?!
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006!!
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
+ tHe gAmE oF |0vE +
Having sorta "discussed" our opinions over a friend's view on some relationship issues, I suddenly realise what do people mean by "the Game of Love", well, perhaps on a smaller scale.
I'd always told myself never to fall for someone, or bother about whether someone is falling for me, because it will be draining and torturous and nothing good. I supposed i don't like to play the game.
The game of receiving and interpreting the signals correctly, of giving out or returning the correct signals, to make sure the other party receives the signals and interpret them correctly. Though it could sometimes be very sweet, it is really taxing, and could at some point of time even confuse the signaller him/herself. I'm not making believe, I'm talking about myself.
That's why i always encourage my friends who are always troubled by "ai mei" bgr problems, (gal, you know who you are! :P) don't bother if they like you or not. If you like him, go for it. If you don't like him, draw the line. If you are not sure of your feelings, think over it yourself before doing anything. The last one happened to me. And before I know what I wanted, I ended everything before anything can start.
But now, I think that that "ai mei" is what the game is about. If the signalling process is ended chop chop through direct communication, the dillydallying stops. No dragging, no nothing. Just chop chop an answer. Something else will continue from here, be it good or bad or same. Maybe for people like me, it's the best way out. It saves our energy and time. But come to think of it, wouldn't we have missed out the "fun" during the signalling period?
Perhaps only those with the extra elements be able to properly play the game of love.
I'd always told myself never to fall for someone, or bother about whether someone is falling for me, because it will be draining and torturous and nothing good. I supposed i don't like to play the game.
The game of receiving and interpreting the signals correctly, of giving out or returning the correct signals, to make sure the other party receives the signals and interpret them correctly. Though it could sometimes be very sweet, it is really taxing, and could at some point of time even confuse the signaller him/herself. I'm not making believe, I'm talking about myself.
That's why i always encourage my friends who are always troubled by "ai mei" bgr problems, (gal, you know who you are! :P) don't bother if they like you or not. If you like him, go for it. If you don't like him, draw the line. If you are not sure of your feelings, think over it yourself before doing anything. The last one happened to me. And before I know what I wanted, I ended everything before anything can start.
But now, I think that that "ai mei" is what the game is about. If the signalling process is ended chop chop through direct communication, the dillydallying stops. No dragging, no nothing. Just chop chop an answer. Something else will continue from here, be it good or bad or same. Maybe for people like me, it's the best way out. It saves our energy and time. But come to think of it, wouldn't we have missed out the "fun" during the signalling period?
Perhaps only those with the extra elements be able to properly play the game of love.
Friday, December 23, 2005
+ eV|dEnCe +
Been watching a few episodes of "Zhen Ming Tian Nu", "Mi Jia Le Zhi Wu" and a few of Energy's mvs. And I quite envy them. It must have been so fun to work on something whole-heartedly with a few close friends.
How nice it will be if i can be in a film with a few of my close friends, sing a harmonized song together, dance a song with synchronized moves, take photos with exaggerated or model-like poses, go overseas together, live together, or simply work on something together and have something as an evidence to remind us of it later in our lives.
Filming, I suppose it's impossible. None of my friends are interested in acting anyway. And I'm not even an actress. I'm not refering to simply acting here. I meant acting with a bunch of close friends. In the years to come, Energy will still laugh at those days when they were filming MJLZW, SHE will have nice memories from ZMTN, and all of them will remember the days they worked on a project with those good friends. How envious.
Sing a harmonized song? None of my friends know how to harmonize. Me neither. But I thought it would be fun to come together with a few close friends and discuss and work on it. The product may not be nice, but at least, it's OUR song! Isn't it nice? I don't mind being the background to complement the main voice, but too bad, no one is interested. No one is really interested to work on a song, well, at least not with me. They are contented to be just the main voice. But do you know? A song with harmonizing really do sound better than just one person singing. It's even nicer if that song is sang by you and your closer friends, each singing their own parts, but sounding awesome together. Makes me really miss my quartet back then. Too bad we didn't recorded then or i'll have some evidence i can keep. But luckily, i still keep the memories.
Dance? Haiz.... Take funny or modelling shoots? Sadz... The same cliched expression when the camera is facing you. Smile. Just look nice. Cheers......
Travelling overseas together? That's what I'm really looking so forward to. But expectations and reality are normally opposite. Living together? Yah... I miss my roommate. Really! I'll recall and miss those times we spent every now and then, though some unhappy stuffs did happen b4 too.
Actually all these are not wistful things. Situations similar to those are happening everyday. Everyone go to school together, eat together, go toilet together, cry together, laugh together. With who? Best pals. Except the only evidence to prove those wonderful times which you had spent with them in the quest for knowledge and paper chase are only the memories left in your heart, and occasionally some photos, and at the end of it, just a piece of paper of your results.
Project mates? The product from the project shall remind you of them in the years to come.
Come to think of it, I should be grateful. Although all i have is the memories and some photos, I'd worked on quite many projects, ranging from academically, to competitive, to pure leisure. Yes, with my then close friends.
Indeed, Process is always better than the Product. It's also to experience that process that I'm so keen. The process of working towards one ultimate goal together with a group of close friends.
Still, I'm hopeful for a proper evidence which I can recall from and show my next generation to.
How nice it will be if i can be in a film with a few of my close friends, sing a harmonized song together, dance a song with synchronized moves, take photos with exaggerated or model-like poses, go overseas together, live together, or simply work on something together and have something as an evidence to remind us of it later in our lives.
Filming, I suppose it's impossible. None of my friends are interested in acting anyway. And I'm not even an actress. I'm not refering to simply acting here. I meant acting with a bunch of close friends. In the years to come, Energy will still laugh at those days when they were filming MJLZW, SHE will have nice memories from ZMTN, and all of them will remember the days they worked on a project with those good friends. How envious.
Sing a harmonized song? None of my friends know how to harmonize. Me neither. But I thought it would be fun to come together with a few close friends and discuss and work on it. The product may not be nice, but at least, it's OUR song! Isn't it nice? I don't mind being the background to complement the main voice, but too bad, no one is interested. No one is really interested to work on a song, well, at least not with me. They are contented to be just the main voice. But do you know? A song with harmonizing really do sound better than just one person singing. It's even nicer if that song is sang by you and your closer friends, each singing their own parts, but sounding awesome together. Makes me really miss my quartet back then. Too bad we didn't recorded then or i'll have some evidence i can keep. But luckily, i still keep the memories.
Dance? Haiz.... Take funny or modelling shoots? Sadz... The same cliched expression when the camera is facing you. Smile. Just look nice. Cheers......
Travelling overseas together? That's what I'm really looking so forward to. But expectations and reality are normally opposite. Living together? Yah... I miss my roommate. Really! I'll recall and miss those times we spent every now and then, though some unhappy stuffs did happen b4 too.
Actually all these are not wistful things. Situations similar to those are happening everyday. Everyone go to school together, eat together, go toilet together, cry together, laugh together. With who? Best pals. Except the only evidence to prove those wonderful times which you had spent with them in the quest for knowledge and paper chase are only the memories left in your heart, and occasionally some photos, and at the end of it, just a piece of paper of your results.
Project mates? The product from the project shall remind you of them in the years to come.
Come to think of it, I should be grateful. Although all i have is the memories and some photos, I'd worked on quite many projects, ranging from academically, to competitive, to pure leisure. Yes, with my then close friends.
Indeed, Process is always better than the Product. It's also to experience that process that I'm so keen. The process of working towards one ultimate goal together with a group of close friends.
Still, I'm hopeful for a proper evidence which I can recall from and show my next generation to.
Friday, December 16, 2005
+ Sp|dEr : Dream 1 +
It happened long long ago. So long that i forgot when. Yet I'm only 22, so it shouldn't have been that long.
We used to live in a small village right outside a big patch of forest. It was then undeveloped, nothing like any sight one can see anywhere now. Everyone lived in wooden houses, though rundown, yet huge, with a floor above and an attic. Everyday was peaceful, until that fateful day that changed everything.
A group of us kids were playing in the open area outside our houses, my elder brother and I, and a couple of neighbour kids. The forest was our friend, because it provided tons of entertainment for our otherwise dull childhood. Yet we never managed to explore deep into it, probably the deep and unknown scared us. We would play by the fringe, that's all.
Yet that day, as we got all hyped and excited in our usual but never boring game: catching, we got nearer and nearer to the forest, and into it. Perhaps it was doomed to be that fateful day, because the sun set very early that day, and it took too long to rise again.
The group of us were still in the forest as dusk fell. It's only till later that we realised one of us was missing.
"Everyone! Let's get into pairs and split up to find him!" My brother ordered. All of us nodded, but i didn't pair with my brother, because to him I'm a little pest. He paired with another boy, and me with the little sis of that boy. With the other pairs, we split and started searching, screaming the missing kid's name.
My partner and I were going in this direction which we never went before. We just concentrated on parting the shrubs as we got deeper and deeper into the forest, suspecting that the missing kid would be hiding somewhere inside. Suddenly, we heard/felt something swept past before us somewhere. It was a sudden movement, then all was still. Both of us looked at each other, bewildered.
"AAHHH!!!" both of us jerked our head to our right where the scream came from, especially for me, my heart missed a beat, because that was my brother who screamed! We rushed blindly in that direction, getting cuts in our hands and legs, but we didn't bother.
"Bro! Bro!! Where are you!!" I searched frantically. Suddenly, my brother's visibly petrified face emerged from among the bushes, grabbing me and my friend and starting running in the direction where we came from. "Run! There's a huge spider!!"
I almost wanted to laugh at this. I forgot my brother was most scared of spiders, considering we grew up among them. "Where's my bro?" my friend panted.
"I don't know! That spider came and we split up!"
"What? I'm going back for him!" my friend turned back, but my brother was trying so hard to hold her back. "Don't get youself killed! He might have escaped! We must....."
"AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" my friend shrieked and my brother froze.
I looked up.
"OH MY GOD!!! SPIDER!!! RRRUUUUNNNNN!!!!!!" Instinctively i grabbed the 2 of them and ran for my life! Never in my life had i ran so fast! Never in my life had i seen such a HUGE spider!! It was as tall as my dad! and we were very small! And it was chasing us! I knew I was DREAMiNg! I want to WAKE UP!!
"AAAHHHHhhhhh!!! RRRUUUNNNN!!!!" The 3 of us were yelling like crazy as we ran at top speed, releasing the nerves trapped tightened in our muscles and allowing us to run even faster, yet at the same time careful not to trip over anything, because we knew, somehow, that if there's just a slight stumble, that's the end of us.
I didn't know why, I was always the slowest in running, yet i ran the first now, followed closely by my friend, then my brother. Perhaps my brother was too scared stiffed in his legs, while I, on the contrary, the fright had given me even more power to run.
Run and think of nothing! I tried to hynoptise myself. RUN AND THINK OF NOTHING! THERE'S NO SPIDER BEHIND ME!!!
"AARRGGHH!! HHEELLLPPPPP!!!! NNNOOOO!!!" That's my brother again! I turned back, and saw my brother tied in his leg in that stupid spider's web! And he was being dragged by his leg back into the forest!!
"Bro!!" Both of us girls started to run after them, not knowing how, but we must save him! As we ran, we tried to look around for something to attack. It was dark, thoroughly dark! My brother was still screaming, but was somehow stuck in between 2 trees, and the retreat was stopped short.
This is it! I thought to myself as I grabbed a long strong stick out of nowhere, and my friend scooped up a whole bunch of pebbles. That's all we could do. Before the spider came back, we reached my brother. he was trying to break that thick web tangling his leg, but he got his hands stuck too! That web was too sticky! Grrr!
The bushes before us rustled again, very fast! And there was a force puling my brother. We knew it! With one swift swoop of my stick, I chopped free that disgusting web and freed my brother.
"Hurry up!" I screamed! But it was too late! Another web came flying and grabbed my brother around his waist! "ARGH!" he held onto a trunk and hugged it tight, all the while being pulled towards the spider while the spider came closer. I couldn't chop that web off again because he was too high!
Suddenly, everything was in slow motion! Me and my friend took the pebbles and threw them at where we thought the spider would be, but they didn't even seem to hinder it one bit! We had to change the strategy! My friend took a boulder rock out of no where and aimed at one leg, crippling it. The spider struggled in anger! Seeing this slight advantage and feeling a little bold, i took my stick and with all my might, whacked it on its head! But it only seemed to get more pissed, not injured though.
"HHAIYAK!!" Out of nowhere, a long stick/branch appeared and stabbed halfway right into the spider's body! The spider struggled and roared! I didn't know spiders ROARED?!?! and the web that tied my brother to it broke! Seeing this example, i took my stick and shove it up the belly of the stupid spider, sending almost half of it into it, though i was amazed that stick of mine didn't break!
"Come on!" Someone grabbed my hand and dragged me away! Turned out that it was my friend's brother who saved us, the one whom was paired with my brother in the search in the beginning. And it turned out that that spider was reared by a kid in the same village, except that this spider broke free from its METAL cage and escaped into the forest.
When we were finally certain we were safe from the spider, I finally woke up.
We used to live in a small village right outside a big patch of forest. It was then undeveloped, nothing like any sight one can see anywhere now. Everyone lived in wooden houses, though rundown, yet huge, with a floor above and an attic. Everyday was peaceful, until that fateful day that changed everything.
A group of us kids were playing in the open area outside our houses, my elder brother and I, and a couple of neighbour kids. The forest was our friend, because it provided tons of entertainment for our otherwise dull childhood. Yet we never managed to explore deep into it, probably the deep and unknown scared us. We would play by the fringe, that's all.
Yet that day, as we got all hyped and excited in our usual but never boring game: catching, we got nearer and nearer to the forest, and into it. Perhaps it was doomed to be that fateful day, because the sun set very early that day, and it took too long to rise again.
The group of us were still in the forest as dusk fell. It's only till later that we realised one of us was missing.
"Everyone! Let's get into pairs and split up to find him!" My brother ordered. All of us nodded, but i didn't pair with my brother, because to him I'm a little pest. He paired with another boy, and me with the little sis of that boy. With the other pairs, we split and started searching, screaming the missing kid's name.
My partner and I were going in this direction which we never went before. We just concentrated on parting the shrubs as we got deeper and deeper into the forest, suspecting that the missing kid would be hiding somewhere inside. Suddenly, we heard/felt something swept past before us somewhere. It was a sudden movement, then all was still. Both of us looked at each other, bewildered.
"AAHHH!!!" both of us jerked our head to our right where the scream came from, especially for me, my heart missed a beat, because that was my brother who screamed! We rushed blindly in that direction, getting cuts in our hands and legs, but we didn't bother.
"Bro! Bro!! Where are you!!" I searched frantically. Suddenly, my brother's visibly petrified face emerged from among the bushes, grabbing me and my friend and starting running in the direction where we came from. "Run! There's a huge spider!!"
I almost wanted to laugh at this. I forgot my brother was most scared of spiders, considering we grew up among them. "Where's my bro?" my friend panted.
"I don't know! That spider came and we split up!"
"What? I'm going back for him!" my friend turned back, but my brother was trying so hard to hold her back. "Don't get youself killed! He might have escaped! We must....."
"AAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!" my friend shrieked and my brother froze.
I looked up.
"OH MY GOD!!! SPIDER!!! RRRUUUUNNNNN!!!!!!" Instinctively i grabbed the 2 of them and ran for my life! Never in my life had i ran so fast! Never in my life had i seen such a HUGE spider!! It was as tall as my dad! and we were very small! And it was chasing us! I knew I was DREAMiNg! I want to WAKE UP!!
"AAAHHHHhhhhh!!! RRRUUUNNNN!!!!" The 3 of us were yelling like crazy as we ran at top speed, releasing the nerves trapped tightened in our muscles and allowing us to run even faster, yet at the same time careful not to trip over anything, because we knew, somehow, that if there's just a slight stumble, that's the end of us.
I didn't know why, I was always the slowest in running, yet i ran the first now, followed closely by my friend, then my brother. Perhaps my brother was too scared stiffed in his legs, while I, on the contrary, the fright had given me even more power to run.
Run and think of nothing! I tried to hynoptise myself. RUN AND THINK OF NOTHING! THERE'S NO SPIDER BEHIND ME!!!
"AARRGGHH!! HHEELLLPPPPP!!!! NNNOOOO!!!" That's my brother again! I turned back, and saw my brother tied in his leg in that stupid spider's web! And he was being dragged by his leg back into the forest!!
"Bro!!" Both of us girls started to run after them, not knowing how, but we must save him! As we ran, we tried to look around for something to attack. It was dark, thoroughly dark! My brother was still screaming, but was somehow stuck in between 2 trees, and the retreat was stopped short.
This is it! I thought to myself as I grabbed a long strong stick out of nowhere, and my friend scooped up a whole bunch of pebbles. That's all we could do. Before the spider came back, we reached my brother. he was trying to break that thick web tangling his leg, but he got his hands stuck too! That web was too sticky! Grrr!
The bushes before us rustled again, very fast! And there was a force puling my brother. We knew it! With one swift swoop of my stick, I chopped free that disgusting web and freed my brother.
"Hurry up!" I screamed! But it was too late! Another web came flying and grabbed my brother around his waist! "ARGH!" he held onto a trunk and hugged it tight, all the while being pulled towards the spider while the spider came closer. I couldn't chop that web off again because he was too high!
Suddenly, everything was in slow motion! Me and my friend took the pebbles and threw them at where we thought the spider would be, but they didn't even seem to hinder it one bit! We had to change the strategy! My friend took a boulder rock out of no where and aimed at one leg, crippling it. The spider struggled in anger! Seeing this slight advantage and feeling a little bold, i took my stick and with all my might, whacked it on its head! But it only seemed to get more pissed, not injured though.
"HHAIYAK!!" Out of nowhere, a long stick/branch appeared and stabbed halfway right into the spider's body! The spider struggled and roared! I didn't know spiders ROARED?!?! and the web that tied my brother to it broke! Seeing this example, i took my stick and shove it up the belly of the stupid spider, sending almost half of it into it, though i was amazed that stick of mine didn't break!
"Come on!" Someone grabbed my hand and dragged me away! Turned out that it was my friend's brother who saved us, the one whom was paired with my brother in the search in the beginning. And it turned out that that spider was reared by a kid in the same village, except that this spider broke free from its METAL cage and escaped into the forest.
When we were finally certain we were safe from the spider, I finally woke up.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
+ k|dS +
Who says kids are cute?? *Cry*
Okay... they are... when they are not hyperactive 24 hours per day!!!
They are cute when they don't practise their vocal by screaming at the top of their lungs!!
They are cute when they do NOT stick to you all day long, so that you can't do anything you have to because they will want to join in and mess up everything, then insisting on you playing games with them where they would end up quarrelling with each other and you'll have to play the mediator and separate the 2 fighting enemies. Then when you are clearing up the mess they made, there they all, totally forgotten about the past squabble and happily playing, running around the whole house, putting everything breakable under high falling risk and shrieking on top of their voices. You can't do anything in peace.
Yah.. try playing catching with them and they'll end up crying even louder than screams just because they were "caught". ZZzzz
As if the little kid whom my family babysits is not enough, his little sis arrived yesterday, turning my whole house topsy turvy in just 2 hours till she went home. Goodness. She's cute. Really cute. But. Haiz. That's it. I'm supposed to babysit them. Now I'm stuck in this house with the 2 of them for one whole week! I'm gonna miss my Zhang Dong Jian.. I can't use the computer at my free will. I can't even step outta this house already! I'm gonna get cut off from this world. Just as i am typing this now, the duo are screaming outside the room, and i can hear legs running everywhere, and every now and then they would barge in suddenly to drag me out. I'm only sneaking in coz i feel i'll go crazy soon if i don't release anything out! Grrr...
I thought about taking them out so that they at least wont be so noisy. But my parents say I'll have to take full responsibility if anything happens to them... Uh... Haiz... Ok. Trap me in then.
Still, kida are cute, at a price.
*cry*
Okay... they are... when they are not hyperactive 24 hours per day!!!
They are cute when they don't practise their vocal by screaming at the top of their lungs!!
They are cute when they do NOT stick to you all day long, so that you can't do anything you have to because they will want to join in and mess up everything, then insisting on you playing games with them where they would end up quarrelling with each other and you'll have to play the mediator and separate the 2 fighting enemies. Then when you are clearing up the mess they made, there they all, totally forgotten about the past squabble and happily playing, running around the whole house, putting everything breakable under high falling risk and shrieking on top of their voices. You can't do anything in peace.
Yah.. try playing catching with them and they'll end up crying even louder than screams just because they were "caught". ZZzzz
As if the little kid whom my family babysits is not enough, his little sis arrived yesterday, turning my whole house topsy turvy in just 2 hours till she went home. Goodness. She's cute. Really cute. But. Haiz. That's it. I'm supposed to babysit them. Now I'm stuck in this house with the 2 of them for one whole week! I'm gonna miss my Zhang Dong Jian.. I can't use the computer at my free will. I can't even step outta this house already! I'm gonna get cut off from this world. Just as i am typing this now, the duo are screaming outside the room, and i can hear legs running everywhere, and every now and then they would barge in suddenly to drag me out. I'm only sneaking in coz i feel i'll go crazy soon if i don't release anything out! Grrr...
I thought about taking them out so that they at least wont be so noisy. But my parents say I'll have to take full responsibility if anything happens to them... Uh... Haiz... Ok. Trap me in then.
Still, kida are cute, at a price.
*cry*
Friday, December 09, 2005
+ 0pEn m|nD +
~~Attitudes~~
There are certain things in Life that are lost to you the moment you are born.
Perhaps Wealth, perhaps Rights, perhaps Health, perhaps Love.
Then? What will you do?
Sit down and bawl? Spend your whole life pursuing the things that are never meant to be yours, only that realise that if ever one day you managed to achieve them, you had already lost those that you already owned? Or simply guarding all that you already have against anything that might deprive you of it, only to realise that had you just put in that tiny effort, you would have gotten what you want and still keeping those that you already owned?
Neither is wrong.
Had a random chat with a friend recently. And i realized something similar to this. We touched on the topic: Chi Bu Dao Pu Tao Shuo Pu Tao Shuan "The grapes which we can't lay our hands on, we say they are sour grapes" (direct translation from the chinese proverbs). She proclaimed she is those type of people whom, if she can never lay her hands on the grapes, she'll spend her life lamenting on how sour they are. Me, on the contrary, said I'll spend my life under the tree, looking at those grapes wistfully, telling myself, they will forever be the best grapes. But then i realized too, that there will always be others who will spend their lives trying every means to get those grapes, and perhaps they might really get them. Similarly, there will always be some whom, once certain that they can never lay their hands on those grapes, will move on to other trees and watch out for other grapes that are within their reaches.
Perhaps this portrayed our attitudes in Life. What's yours? However, neither is wrong. Just different.
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~~Principle~~
Some people spend their whole life guarding a belief or principle, regardless of any external or internal interferrence. It could be that they were brought up that way, or simply through the experiences earned in life, that they held the principles strong in their hearts. And they believe that so long as they stick to that principle under any circumstances, they will Shou De Yun Kai Jian Yue Ming "Able to stay put and wait till the clouds part and finally be able to see the bright moon" (direct translation)
However, more often than not, the principles which they had so faithfully guarded with their lives, are usually what caused their Downfall.
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Human.
Balance is such a thin line between two extremes.
Perhaps it's time to see the world with an open mind.
There are certain things in Life that are lost to you the moment you are born.
Perhaps Wealth, perhaps Rights, perhaps Health, perhaps Love.
Then? What will you do?
Sit down and bawl? Spend your whole life pursuing the things that are never meant to be yours, only that realise that if ever one day you managed to achieve them, you had already lost those that you already owned? Or simply guarding all that you already have against anything that might deprive you of it, only to realise that had you just put in that tiny effort, you would have gotten what you want and still keeping those that you already owned?
Neither is wrong.
Had a random chat with a friend recently. And i realized something similar to this. We touched on the topic: Chi Bu Dao Pu Tao Shuo Pu Tao Shuan "The grapes which we can't lay our hands on, we say they are sour grapes" (direct translation from the chinese proverbs). She proclaimed she is those type of people whom, if she can never lay her hands on the grapes, she'll spend her life lamenting on how sour they are. Me, on the contrary, said I'll spend my life under the tree, looking at those grapes wistfully, telling myself, they will forever be the best grapes. But then i realized too, that there will always be others who will spend their lives trying every means to get those grapes, and perhaps they might really get them. Similarly, there will always be some whom, once certain that they can never lay their hands on those grapes, will move on to other trees and watch out for other grapes that are within their reaches.
Perhaps this portrayed our attitudes in Life. What's yours? However, neither is wrong. Just different.
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~~Principle~~
Some people spend their whole life guarding a belief or principle, regardless of any external or internal interferrence. It could be that they were brought up that way, or simply through the experiences earned in life, that they held the principles strong in their hearts. And they believe that so long as they stick to that principle under any circumstances, they will Shou De Yun Kai Jian Yue Ming "Able to stay put and wait till the clouds part and finally be able to see the bright moon" (direct translation)
However, more often than not, the principles which they had so faithfully guarded with their lives, are usually what caused their Downfall.
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Human.
Balance is such a thin line between two extremes.
Perhaps it's time to see the world with an open mind.
Monday, November 28, 2005
+ tHe dAy | bLeW uP mY hA|R +
Ever watched a movie scene where a guy went to the barber's, and at the end of everything when he looked into the mirror, he got the SHOCK of his life?
That's right! That's exactly how I felt!!! i did lotsa washing n washing n when the hairdresser finally took off the towel that draped my hair and I looked into the mirror,
OH MY GOSH! I BLEW UP MY HAIR!!!
Or rather, the hairdresser did it. SOBZzz! If it was any holidays of the year or any other time in my life, I wouldn't care what happened to my hair! BUT NO!!! Not tomorrow when I have a VERY IMPORTANT appointment with someone who could INFLUENCE MY LIFE!!!
NNOOOOoooooo!!!!!!
Why does it have to happen to me??? Why does it have to happen now?? What bad luck! BAD LUCK!
Bleahz!
And nope! I shan't post my photo up. I'll just leave it to Fate to see who will be the "LUCKY" ones to see me in my blown up head. And let you all have a laugh over it bah... Haiz... the practical world... *shakes head*
I really hope he will not yan qian fang kong. If he really did..... I.... I don't know what i'll do..... T_T
That's right! That's exactly how I felt!!! i did lotsa washing n washing n when the hairdresser finally took off the towel that draped my hair and I looked into the mirror,
OH MY GOSH! I BLEW UP MY HAIR!!!
Or rather, the hairdresser did it. SOBZzz! If it was any holidays of the year or any other time in my life, I wouldn't care what happened to my hair! BUT NO!!! Not tomorrow when I have a VERY IMPORTANT appointment with someone who could INFLUENCE MY LIFE!!!
NNOOOOoooooo!!!!!!
Why does it have to happen to me??? Why does it have to happen now?? What bad luck! BAD LUCK!
Bleahz!
And nope! I shan't post my photo up. I'll just leave it to Fate to see who will be the "LUCKY" ones to see me in my blown up head. And let you all have a laugh over it bah... Haiz... the practical world... *shakes head*
I really hope he will not yan qian fang kong. If he really did..... I.... I don't know what i'll do..... T_T
Friday, November 25, 2005
+ nEw BeG|nn|nG +
New day! New Beginning! New skin!
Old ME!
Is this skin ok?? Better?? Worse?? Dull?? Feedback please!!!
Because some said the previous one was actually very not reader friendly.
Is this better now?
Actually i quite like this new skin.
Simple and nice. And full of mOO-mOOs!
Just the way I like it!! YAY!!!
Maybe this skin looks a bit plain, but that's me mah! I'm a plain gal in plain clothes. But more importantly, is my life as plain? or is it plain interesting? It's up to me to fill it in!!
Will this represent a new start? Am I able to shrug off the shadows of yesterday, and face tomorrow with strength? Will things go smoothly for me from now on?
I know, it's all up to me.
Why is Palmistry so accurate?
Because YOU hold your own DESTINY!!!
That's right! You decide where you go! I decide where I go! And I shall walk down that path with no regrets! So stop following me ok?? haha I'm starting to crap liaoz...
The future is full of Hope! Even if there is only one day left, I must still live it to the FULLEST! Hey You! Come on! Life is just beginning! We are and must be full of ENERGY!!!
Every Tomorrow will be a better day, bright and full of sunshine! :D
Old ME!
Is this skin ok?? Better?? Worse?? Dull?? Feedback please!!!
Because some said the previous one was actually very not reader friendly.
Is this better now?
Actually i quite like this new skin.
Simple and nice. And full of mOO-mOOs!
Just the way I like it!! YAY!!!
Maybe this skin looks a bit plain, but that's me mah! I'm a plain gal in plain clothes. But more importantly, is my life as plain? or is it plain interesting? It's up to me to fill it in!!
Will this represent a new start? Am I able to shrug off the shadows of yesterday, and face tomorrow with strength? Will things go smoothly for me from now on?
I know, it's all up to me.
Why is Palmistry so accurate?
Because YOU hold your own DESTINY!!!
That's right! You decide where you go! I decide where I go! And I shall walk down that path with no regrets! So stop following me ok?? haha I'm starting to crap liaoz...
The future is full of Hope! Even if there is only one day left, I must still live it to the FULLEST! Hey You! Come on! Life is just beginning! We are and must be full of ENERGY!!!
Every Tomorrow will be a better day, bright and full of sunshine! :D
Friday, November 11, 2005
+ mEnTaL wAr +
This is terrible. i hate this feeling. this feeling of uncertainty, doubt, fear of the unknown...
Do i deserve this? perhaps...
i havent been hardworking... no... this is not my most hardworking semester...
But... i had tried... this hadnt been my most hardworking sem, but this was my most attentive sem... i'd paid attention to the lecturers, even if i'd skipped some, or without notes... but i didnt sleep so often during lectures already... i'd tried to listen... even when i'd drifted off for a few seconds n missed a few points, i'd understood most of what i'd heard.
Even though i did try to do tutorials after school everyday, i realised i didn't achieve much... i spent most of my little time at home on projects... so many of them... Integrated Design, Struct II, FYP....
ID was horrible... everyone was so disorganised and uninitiated at first... No one knew what they were supposed to do and didnt bother to find out... those who THOUGHT they knew so happily insisted on their concepts and refused to accomodate other more correct ideas... Not that i'm very good myself, but i had to try hard to organise them up... i spent so long doing research so that i could at least get ourselves some ideas and started up, and even drag ourselves to the tutors for a clearer explanation of the theme... then for those who dunno or simply cant understand, i really had a hard time explaining to them whats going on, without them misunderstanding my good intentions... haiz...
Struct II, though we really had fun, it was the most taxing.... so much energy and many precious nights staying back trying to build up that bridge, which in the end failed us... haiz... it really zapped me of so much energy mentally and physically that i had to take long rests the next days in order to restore back my 'health'... (imagine carrying a dunno how many kilos' handdrill up and down for hours and all those technical work and concentration... trust me... its really not easy) and yah... i practically had to improvise the entire report the whole night when i had an important quiz the next day...
FYP is ok... initially i know nuts about what i'm supposed to do... simply because i'd never taken this related module before.. i chose this theme purely out of interest... noble eh? but well, that interest pays off i guess... i've got a nice tutor, a nice partner, a nice theme which i enjoyed so much... but i really spent lotsa time on the research.. a lot... really... but more than 50% are not relevant... zzzz...
On top of all these, there's still ppl depriving me of a computer to do my research and reports and powerpoints on, making me wait till the wee hours of the night only to realise that they are only going to give it to me in the dusk of the next morning after they finished their precious game...
...and also some irritating idiots who are so worried that i'd be bored to death without their constant irritations...
With my health so messed up like this, i really wonder if i would just die of a burst blood vessel one day sooner because of them!
People may say I havent been hardworking enough.... People may say it's time management... I'd say it's...
Mental power management
The mental power to stay attentive during lectures after long tiring journeys to school early in the morning....
The mental power to concentrate and study during late nights at home after a real taxing day from dealing with people and physical work...
The mental power to distribute your energy evenly to all areas.... I'd dare say, even if i had the spare time, i didnt have the energy to focus and concentrate on the books...
And now... the mental power to stay focused amidst the overwhelming stress that is engulfing me, choking me to death every moment...
These days... i cant even sleep late.... I cant even wake up early.... Maybe this time, i really have to admit defeat to this mental war... or perhaps not?
No... its not over yet... I can still make the last struggle...
Maybe yes... maybe no.... maybe.... ARGH!!! I hate this feeling of uncertainty!!!
The outcome shall be released one and a half month from now....
Pray hard for me that i shall win....
*prays*
Do i deserve this? perhaps...
i havent been hardworking... no... this is not my most hardworking semester...
But... i had tried... this hadnt been my most hardworking sem, but this was my most attentive sem... i'd paid attention to the lecturers, even if i'd skipped some, or without notes... but i didnt sleep so often during lectures already... i'd tried to listen... even when i'd drifted off for a few seconds n missed a few points, i'd understood most of what i'd heard.
Even though i did try to do tutorials after school everyday, i realised i didn't achieve much... i spent most of my little time at home on projects... so many of them... Integrated Design, Struct II, FYP....
ID was horrible... everyone was so disorganised and uninitiated at first... No one knew what they were supposed to do and didnt bother to find out... those who THOUGHT they knew so happily insisted on their concepts and refused to accomodate other more correct ideas... Not that i'm very good myself, but i had to try hard to organise them up... i spent so long doing research so that i could at least get ourselves some ideas and started up, and even drag ourselves to the tutors for a clearer explanation of the theme... then for those who dunno or simply cant understand, i really had a hard time explaining to them whats going on, without them misunderstanding my good intentions... haiz...
Struct II, though we really had fun, it was the most taxing.... so much energy and many precious nights staying back trying to build up that bridge, which in the end failed us... haiz... it really zapped me of so much energy mentally and physically that i had to take long rests the next days in order to restore back my 'health'... (imagine carrying a dunno how many kilos' handdrill up and down for hours and all those technical work and concentration... trust me... its really not easy) and yah... i practically had to improvise the entire report the whole night when i had an important quiz the next day...
FYP is ok... initially i know nuts about what i'm supposed to do... simply because i'd never taken this related module before.. i chose this theme purely out of interest... noble eh? but well, that interest pays off i guess... i've got a nice tutor, a nice partner, a nice theme which i enjoyed so much... but i really spent lotsa time on the research.. a lot... really... but more than 50% are not relevant... zzzz...
On top of all these, there's still ppl depriving me of a computer to do my research and reports and powerpoints on, making me wait till the wee hours of the night only to realise that they are only going to give it to me in the dusk of the next morning after they finished their precious game...
...and also some irritating idiots who are so worried that i'd be bored to death without their constant irritations...
With my health so messed up like this, i really wonder if i would just die of a burst blood vessel one day sooner because of them!
People may say I havent been hardworking enough.... People may say it's time management... I'd say it's...
Mental power management
The mental power to stay attentive during lectures after long tiring journeys to school early in the morning....
The mental power to concentrate and study during late nights at home after a real taxing day from dealing with people and physical work...
The mental power to distribute your energy evenly to all areas.... I'd dare say, even if i had the spare time, i didnt have the energy to focus and concentrate on the books...
And now... the mental power to stay focused amidst the overwhelming stress that is engulfing me, choking me to death every moment...
These days... i cant even sleep late.... I cant even wake up early.... Maybe this time, i really have to admit defeat to this mental war... or perhaps not?
No... its not over yet... I can still make the last struggle...
Maybe yes... maybe no.... maybe.... ARGH!!! I hate this feeling of uncertainty!!!
The outcome shall be released one and a half month from now....
Pray hard for me that i shall win....
*prays*
Saturday, October 22, 2005
+ oNe FiNe dAy +
It started with a very fine weather; cool strong breeze, blue sky with little specks of white clouds, everything fine on a fine day. But for an ordinary common girl at one corner of Earth, her world started with one of the worst storms in that year.
She tried, yes, she tried to overcome that storm, but it wasn't just a normal one. it was one that had been generating since the day she was born. but that day, on that one fine day, together with many other small sources of storms, it erupted into "The Perfect Storm". Ok, without that magnitude, but still as bad. Will Fate let her off? When she's losing grip on herself, who's going to save her?
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To any and everyone out there, on an ordinary day of yours, whether you dressed up or looked very sloppy, whether you combed your hair or wear wear contact lenses or not, just be yourself. Smile earnestly when you did, walk straight with confidence when you did. You never know when your presence can lift someone's spirits, even a stranger's, even when she's having one of the worst storms in her world.
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Thank you to that guy, whose presence had unwittingly extended his hand to pull the ordinary girl up from her storm, to really feel that one fine day. Though they don't know each other, he had really cheered the girl up, just by being himself. To her, he is the angel-in-disguise sent to save her in answer to her request in the morning. Perhaps that will be the only time she will ever see him, but he will always be remembered in her memories, how he had once helped to clear her stormy day. And she will always bless him with good wishes when she did. Thank you.
Thank you to that girl, whose presence had helped brighten that ordinary girl's day with her smiles. She is her close friend whom only see each other once in a while. But she never fails to brighten her day even when both of them were having bad hair days. Just her presence, her just being herself, is enough. She'll always be her much loved friend. Thank you.
Thank you to that other girl, who had willingly accompanied by the ordinary girl's side, throughout that day, from the storm at its darkest hour, to that truly one fine day. Of course, she also helped in that day's transformation. She didn't probe on the sources of the storm, just supporting her all the way. She willingly lent her discman to her when she needs it to listen to her favourite songs to calm her down. She listens to the songs with her though she wasn't very interested and though she needed to study for her quiz. Even when the girl used up twice her batteries in that time, she had no grumbles. She doesn't know if she knows how much she appreciated her gestures, but she really appreciate it. Thank you very much.
Angels are everywhere. In disguise.
The first one, the male angel, only appear once in her life with a mission to help her up from her darkest storm. And he completed that mission.
The second one, the female angel, always appear every now and then, to make sure the girl maintains her cheery mood and optimistic outlook in life, replenishin her energy and courage to face all adversities.
The third one, the female angel, is always by her side, supporting her in everything she does, no matter if her days start with bad weather or not, always makes sure that her days always end with one fine day.
And another girl, sometimes a bit dark, who called immediately after a short sms by the ordinary girl to offer her concern. She, is also an angel.
Thank you to all four of you for making her day.
And many others who are always there, waiting to lend a helping hand on other days of her storms, thank you in advance.
She tried, yes, she tried to overcome that storm, but it wasn't just a normal one. it was one that had been generating since the day she was born. but that day, on that one fine day, together with many other small sources of storms, it erupted into "The Perfect Storm". Ok, without that magnitude, but still as bad. Will Fate let her off? When she's losing grip on herself, who's going to save her?
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To any and everyone out there, on an ordinary day of yours, whether you dressed up or looked very sloppy, whether you combed your hair or wear wear contact lenses or not, just be yourself. Smile earnestly when you did, walk straight with confidence when you did. You never know when your presence can lift someone's spirits, even a stranger's, even when she's having one of the worst storms in her world.
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Thank you to that guy, whose presence had unwittingly extended his hand to pull the ordinary girl up from her storm, to really feel that one fine day. Though they don't know each other, he had really cheered the girl up, just by being himself. To her, he is the angel-in-disguise sent to save her in answer to her request in the morning. Perhaps that will be the only time she will ever see him, but he will always be remembered in her memories, how he had once helped to clear her stormy day. And she will always bless him with good wishes when she did. Thank you.
Thank you to that girl, whose presence had helped brighten that ordinary girl's day with her smiles. She is her close friend whom only see each other once in a while. But she never fails to brighten her day even when both of them were having bad hair days. Just her presence, her just being herself, is enough. She'll always be her much loved friend. Thank you.
Thank you to that other girl, who had willingly accompanied by the ordinary girl's side, throughout that day, from the storm at its darkest hour, to that truly one fine day. Of course, she also helped in that day's transformation. She didn't probe on the sources of the storm, just supporting her all the way. She willingly lent her discman to her when she needs it to listen to her favourite songs to calm her down. She listens to the songs with her though she wasn't very interested and though she needed to study for her quiz. Even when the girl used up twice her batteries in that time, she had no grumbles. She doesn't know if she knows how much she appreciated her gestures, but she really appreciate it. Thank you very much.
Angels are everywhere. In disguise.
The first one, the male angel, only appear once in her life with a mission to help her up from her darkest storm. And he completed that mission.
The second one, the female angel, always appear every now and then, to make sure the girl maintains her cheery mood and optimistic outlook in life, replenishin her energy and courage to face all adversities.
The third one, the female angel, is always by her side, supporting her in everything she does, no matter if her days start with bad weather or not, always makes sure that her days always end with one fine day.
And another girl, sometimes a bit dark, who called immediately after a short sms by the ordinary girl to offer her concern. She, is also an angel.
Thank you to all four of you for making her day.
And many others who are always there, waiting to lend a helping hand on other days of her storms, thank you in advance.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
+ bAcKsTaB +
What does backstab mean actually? www.dictionary.com defines it as:
To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner: “Some backstab each other and threaten to settle their differences with a punch”
Uh... so what does it mean?
To me, it means talking bad about people behind their backs with the intention of blackening their names. But what if you are doing exactly the same thing, but without that intention? Still a backstab right? haiz... what if you are just grumbling to someone? Like this....
Me: Grr... I'm so pissed!
Pal: Why? What happened?
Me: Aiyah! I have this friend loh.... so irritating one!
Pal: How come?
Me: You see? she.... blah blah blah...! So how can i not be angry??!!
Pal: Oh... who's that?
Me: Aiyah.. it's XXX loh!
Pal: Ooooo... Aiya just simmer down lah... she's like that one lo....
Me: Haiz....
Is the above considered as backstabbing?? I dunno... i'd always thought it's just grumbling... I mean of coz the best scenario is....
Me: Grr.. I'm so pissed!
Pal: Why? What happened?
Ma: Aiyah nothing... nevermind... not worth talking about...
Pal: Ok...
So this is the most moral way... but thing is, most likely i'll go crazy or just die in my own flames...
To me, backstabbing is something like this....
Me: Hey hey! I tell you something!
Pal: What?
Me: You know XXX? Wah kaoz! She's so blah blah blah one eh!
Pal: Oh really?!
Me: Yah! Can't tell right?
Pal: Yah... Never thought she's this kind of person...
Me: That's right! so next time you be careful ah! And you better warn all your friends too!
Pal: Definitely!
So how? this last scenario is one that i dont think i'd ever been in before... I mean i'd never tell tales about my friends like this before... though people have told me about others like this... actually to believe or not, it's up to the listener... i'm sure everyone has their own mind to decide if the one being talked bad about is really that bad or just adopt a sitting on the fence attitude... it's not like they will believe everything they are been told about...
A backstabbing only works when the listener chose to believe... so....
PS: no point is made... just a note only....
Anyway, can someone please tell me if the 1st scenario be considered a backstab?
Well... in my whole life, i guessed i may have UNINTENTIONALLY or INDIRECTLY backstabbed someone... i mean, even if without that intention, a backstab is still a backstab....
So, i hereby sincerely apologize to anyone and everyone whom i had unintentionally backstabbed, though i hope there is no one...
If i really did, you know i don't mean it...
Cheers!
To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner: “Some backstab each other and threaten to settle their differences with a punch”
Uh... so what does it mean?
To me, it means talking bad about people behind their backs with the intention of blackening their names. But what if you are doing exactly the same thing, but without that intention? Still a backstab right? haiz... what if you are just grumbling to someone? Like this....
Me: Grr... I'm so pissed!
Pal: Why? What happened?
Me: Aiyah! I have this friend loh.... so irritating one!
Pal: How come?
Me: You see? she.... blah blah blah...! So how can i not be angry??!!
Pal: Oh... who's that?
Me: Aiyah.. it's XXX loh!
Pal: Ooooo... Aiya just simmer down lah... she's like that one lo....
Me: Haiz....
Is the above considered as backstabbing?? I dunno... i'd always thought it's just grumbling... I mean of coz the best scenario is....
Me: Grr.. I'm so pissed!
Pal: Why? What happened?
Ma: Aiyah nothing... nevermind... not worth talking about...
Pal: Ok...
So this is the most moral way... but thing is, most likely i'll go crazy or just die in my own flames...
To me, backstabbing is something like this....
Me: Hey hey! I tell you something!
Pal: What?
Me: You know XXX? Wah kaoz! She's so blah blah blah one eh!
Pal: Oh really?!
Me: Yah! Can't tell right?
Pal: Yah... Never thought she's this kind of person...
Me: That's right! so next time you be careful ah! And you better warn all your friends too!
Pal: Definitely!
So how? this last scenario is one that i dont think i'd ever been in before... I mean i'd never tell tales about my friends like this before... though people have told me about others like this... actually to believe or not, it's up to the listener... i'm sure everyone has their own mind to decide if the one being talked bad about is really that bad or just adopt a sitting on the fence attitude... it's not like they will believe everything they are been told about...
A backstabbing only works when the listener chose to believe... so....
PS: no point is made... just a note only....
Anyway, can someone please tell me if the 1st scenario be considered a backstab?
Well... in my whole life, i guessed i may have UNINTENTIONALLY or INDIRECTLY backstabbed someone... i mean, even if without that intention, a backstab is still a backstab....
So, i hereby sincerely apologize to anyone and everyone whom i had unintentionally backstabbed, though i hope there is no one...
If i really did, you know i don't mean it...
Cheers!
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
+ S.N.A.G (Part 2) +
+ S.N.A.G (Part 2) +
Scenario 2: (SNAG & Gal on an outing)
(While walking)
SNAG: Eh.... Hee... when did you eat your breakfast today?
Gal: Huh? erm.... around 8am today bah... y?
SNAG: Oh nothing.... just that it's 1pm now.... wondering are you feeling a bit hungry? Hehe..
Gal: Oh.. yah... quite... Are you?
SNAG: A bit... Haha... Wanna go for lunch?
Gal: Okie! Where? What do you want to eat?
SNAG: I'm anything.. Anything you want to eat?
Gal: Uh? But i ask you first eh... I'm okay with anything..
SNAG: Nevermind lah... You choose...
Gal: Hmmm.... Wanna try that Chinese Ramen?
SNAG: Oh! I don't mind! Hahaha.... but i havent try that Jap restaurant before.... Long time din eat jap food already... Looks quite good... Heeezz...
Gal: Oh! Say earlier mah... Then we go try that Jap food loh!
SNAG(skeptic face) : Sure?
Gal: Yah lah! Let's go!
(After 10 mins, finally 10 more steps before reaching the doorstep of Jap restaurant.....)
SNAG: Hey you sure you want to eat Jap food?
Gal: Why not? You wanted to try mah... I also never try the food here before...
SNAG: Is it? But i thought you don't eat wasabi?
Gal: Yes i don't, but not all Jap food have wasabi right??!
SNAG: True... but.... hmm... the Shanghai Ramen looks good too.... You wanted to try that right?
Gal: Well... I said i have no preference already! So what do you want to eat? Can you please make up your mind?
SNAG: Hmmmm.... Ermmm..... I also don't know leh... Why don't you decide?
Gal: Grrr! I thought i already did! I said let's eat Jap food already!
SNAG: Are you sure? But you wanted to eat Shanghai Ramen right? But you chose Jap food to accomodate me right?
Gal: Goodness! You can stand here and think till the cows come home! I'm going home to eat Maggi Mee now! BYE!
Another quality of SNAGs.... Beating about the bush, too indecisive, and! always "hehe" and "haha" in every sentence that they say..... Like what's so funny??!!!
Scenario 2: (SNAG & Gal on an outing)
(While walking)
SNAG: Eh.... Hee... when did you eat your breakfast today?
Gal: Huh? erm.... around 8am today bah... y?
SNAG: Oh nothing.... just that it's 1pm now.... wondering are you feeling a bit hungry? Hehe..
Gal: Oh.. yah... quite... Are you?
SNAG: A bit... Haha... Wanna go for lunch?
Gal: Okie! Where? What do you want to eat?
SNAG: I'm anything.. Anything you want to eat?
Gal: Uh? But i ask you first eh... I'm okay with anything..
SNAG: Nevermind lah... You choose...
Gal: Hmmm.... Wanna try that Chinese Ramen?
SNAG: Oh! I don't mind! Hahaha.... but i havent try that Jap restaurant before.... Long time din eat jap food already... Looks quite good... Heeezz...
Gal: Oh! Say earlier mah... Then we go try that Jap food loh!
SNAG(skeptic face) : Sure?
Gal: Yah lah! Let's go!
(After 10 mins, finally 10 more steps before reaching the doorstep of Jap restaurant.....)
SNAG: Hey you sure you want to eat Jap food?
Gal: Why not? You wanted to try mah... I also never try the food here before...
SNAG: Is it? But i thought you don't eat wasabi?
Gal: Yes i don't, but not all Jap food have wasabi right??!
SNAG: True... but.... hmm... the Shanghai Ramen looks good too.... You wanted to try that right?
Gal: Well... I said i have no preference already! So what do you want to eat? Can you please make up your mind?
SNAG: Hmmmm.... Ermmm..... I also don't know leh... Why don't you decide?
Gal: Grrr! I thought i already did! I said let's eat Jap food already!
SNAG: Are you sure? But you wanted to eat Shanghai Ramen right? But you chose Jap food to accomodate me right?
Gal: Goodness! You can stand here and think till the cows come home! I'm going home to eat Maggi Mee now! BYE!
Another quality of SNAGs.... Beating about the bush, too indecisive, and! always "hehe" and "haha" in every sentence that they say..... Like what's so funny??!!!
Monday, October 10, 2005
+ S.N.A.G (Part 1) +
+ S.N.A.G (Part 1) +
Sensitive New Age Guy. Who likes them? New Age Gals? Seems like many of my friends YEARN for this kinda guys... Really?? EEEYER! I'm definitely not one of them! Not when they are tooooooo sensitive!
Scenario 1: (thru sms)
Gal: Hey! Do you have XXX file? Can lend me? i need it quite urgently..
SNAG1: Sure sure!! Can can! of course!
Gal: Thankie! So we meet tomorrow? where? I'm free after 7pm...
(Gal lives in Bedok and SNAG lives in Changi)
SNAG1: of coz meet Bedok lah! U are gal mah!
Gal(-.-!!) : ok.. So where n when?
SNAG1: hmmm..... i'll inform you again tml?
Gal: sure.
(Next day during Gal's tutorial)
SNAG1: Hey...Hey... sorri sorri for late reply.... when are you free later?
Gal: shall reach bedok by 7pm...
SNAG1: Hmm... or i pass it to another gal then she pass to you tomorrow? ok ok?
Gal: Tomorrow? Why tomorrow?
SNAG1: Erm.... how about i go to your house at 8pm to pass to you?
Gal: !!! Y dont we meet at Bedok MRT at 8pm?
SNAG1: Or i email to you instead?
Gal: Sure. Thanks.
SNAG1: Okok! I'll sms you when i sent.
So, does everyone find this SNAG cute and nice and considerate? Love him?
YUCKs! Not me!! So irritating!!!!!!!! kaoz! Wasted so much sms for such an easy thing! Cant he have more opinion?
Ideal scenario:
Gal: Hey! Do you have XXX file? Can lend me? i need it quite urgently..
SNAG2: Sure! When do you need it?
Gal: Thanks! Tml can? Where do i meet you? I'm free after 7pm
SNAG2: Ok, meet somewhere in Bedok. Will inform you the time tml.
Gal: ok Thanks!
(Next day during Gal's tutorial)
SNAG2: Hey! i dont think i'll be free later to meet you. Shall i email it to you?
Gal: Sure thanks! Sorry to trouble you!
SNAG2: No prob! will sms you when i'd sent.
See? Short and Sweet and message delivered!
i dont know about others, but i find SNAG1 ultra irritating! so wishy washy! wasted so much precious time n sms simply because he's trying to BE NICE! Eh excuse me? not to that extent ok? if he's really busy, then just tell the gal straight! there's no need to drag here drag there wasting everyone's time! she can always look for other sources! and is there a need to go to the Gal's house late at night to deliver something which she needs? they can always meet outside! It isn't even convenient for a guy to turn up suddenly at a gal's house so late! think of her family! ok, i'm conservative, so what? She's not even close with that guy!
SNAG2 is so much better! straight to the point and still being nice! and with lotsa his opinions and initiative!
Grrr..... if all SNAGs are like SNAG1, fine. I'll rather fall for Bad Guys then! :P
Sensitive New Age Guy. Who likes them? New Age Gals? Seems like many of my friends YEARN for this kinda guys... Really?? EEEYER! I'm definitely not one of them! Not when they are tooooooo sensitive!
Scenario 1: (thru sms)
Gal: Hey! Do you have XXX file? Can lend me? i need it quite urgently..
SNAG1: Sure sure!! Can can! of course!
Gal: Thankie! So we meet tomorrow? where? I'm free after 7pm...
(Gal lives in Bedok and SNAG lives in Changi)
SNAG1: of coz meet Bedok lah! U are gal mah!
Gal(-.-!!) : ok.. So where n when?
SNAG1: hmmm..... i'll inform you again tml?
Gal: sure.
(Next day during Gal's tutorial)
SNAG1: Hey...Hey... sorri sorri for late reply.... when are you free later?
Gal: shall reach bedok by 7pm...
SNAG1: Hmm... or i pass it to another gal then she pass to you tomorrow? ok ok?
Gal: Tomorrow? Why tomorrow?
SNAG1: Erm.... how about i go to your house at 8pm to pass to you?
Gal: !!! Y dont we meet at Bedok MRT at 8pm?
SNAG1: Or i email to you instead?
Gal: Sure. Thanks.
SNAG1: Okok! I'll sms you when i sent.
So, does everyone find this SNAG cute and nice and considerate? Love him?
YUCKs! Not me!! So irritating!!!!!!!! kaoz! Wasted so much sms for such an easy thing! Cant he have more opinion?
Ideal scenario:
Gal: Hey! Do you have XXX file? Can lend me? i need it quite urgently..
SNAG2: Sure! When do you need it?
Gal: Thanks! Tml can? Where do i meet you? I'm free after 7pm
SNAG2: Ok, meet somewhere in Bedok. Will inform you the time tml.
Gal: ok Thanks!
(Next day during Gal's tutorial)
SNAG2: Hey! i dont think i'll be free later to meet you. Shall i email it to you?
Gal: Sure thanks! Sorry to trouble you!
SNAG2: No prob! will sms you when i'd sent.
See? Short and Sweet and message delivered!
i dont know about others, but i find SNAG1 ultra irritating! so wishy washy! wasted so much precious time n sms simply because he's trying to BE NICE! Eh excuse me? not to that extent ok? if he's really busy, then just tell the gal straight! there's no need to drag here drag there wasting everyone's time! she can always look for other sources! and is there a need to go to the Gal's house late at night to deliver something which she needs? they can always meet outside! It isn't even convenient for a guy to turn up suddenly at a gal's house so late! think of her family! ok, i'm conservative, so what? She's not even close with that guy!
SNAG2 is so much better! straight to the point and still being nice! and with lotsa his opinions and initiative!
Grrr..... if all SNAGs are like SNAG1, fine. I'll rather fall for Bad Guys then! :P
Thursday, September 15, 2005
+ mEnTaL aGe qUiZ +
+ mEnTaL aGe qUiZ +
Done the mental age quiz Lipyung asked me to do. Actually i'd done that before....
2 years ago, it said my mental age was 33......
1 year ago, it said my mental age was 30......
Now? The results shown.... I'm 22!!!!
What happened??
Does it mean I'm getting more and more childish?
Does it mean I'm rejuvenating? Have I accidentally drank from the Fountain of Youth??
Should I be glad or sad?
Of course I should be happy! Why? Not that I'm retaining my youth, because this is mental age, nothing to do with appearance! Because it simply means...
I'm becoming more like myself! I'm BEING myself!!
Yes! I'm sick of being a grown-up! I'm sick of having to take care of all the emotional and physical needs of all the people around me! Why should I take up so much responsibility when I'm even struggling to take care of myself? Muahahaha!
Haiz... of course, being 22 doesn't mean very young, doesn't mean I can behave like childish kids who can't grow up. Still, it's a time at least, to do something for myself. If i'm not going to start now, when? Am I going spend my whole life serving others and letting myself go to waste? Am I only going to start doing something for myself after I'm married and have kids? Nahz.... I won't have the time then too....
So... Just let me be myself yah? Not that letting me go wild or take drugs or what... Of course I know what I'm doing... and of course I know what's right and wrong for me....
But, don't force me to do what I don't want to, don't ask me to think like you (I have my OWN thinking), don't expect me to give you my everything just because I'm me...
Just.....
Let me be......
Myself.....
^_^
Done the mental age quiz Lipyung asked me to do. Actually i'd done that before....
2 years ago, it said my mental age was 33......
1 year ago, it said my mental age was 30......
Now? The results shown.... I'm 22!!!!
What happened??
Does it mean I'm getting more and more childish?
Does it mean I'm rejuvenating? Have I accidentally drank from the Fountain of Youth??
Should I be glad or sad?
Of course I should be happy! Why? Not that I'm retaining my youth, because this is mental age, nothing to do with appearance! Because it simply means...
I'm becoming more like myself! I'm BEING myself!!
Yes! I'm sick of being a grown-up! I'm sick of having to take care of all the emotional and physical needs of all the people around me! Why should I take up so much responsibility when I'm even struggling to take care of myself? Muahahaha!
Haiz... of course, being 22 doesn't mean very young, doesn't mean I can behave like childish kids who can't grow up. Still, it's a time at least, to do something for myself. If i'm not going to start now, when? Am I going spend my whole life serving others and letting myself go to waste? Am I only going to start doing something for myself after I'm married and have kids? Nahz.... I won't have the time then too....
So... Just let me be myself yah? Not that letting me go wild or take drugs or what... Of course I know what I'm doing... and of course I know what's right and wrong for me....
But, don't force me to do what I don't want to, don't ask me to think like you (I have my OWN thinking), don't expect me to give you my everything just because I'm me...
Just.....
Let me be......
Myself.....
^_^
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
+ AccIdEnT +
+ AccIdEnT +
Olritez! After all these years.... I FINALLY have an ACCIDENT!!!
That's right. And the victim is not me.
-.-" zzzZZzzz
All due to faulty brakes. So people, please bear in mind. Do not always think wheels have eyes. Even if they do, they don't have legs. They can't stop on their own even if they know they are going to bang into you. And even worse, some drivers can't even control them properly. Don't suspect. It's me.
That's why i NEVER want to learn driving.
This is for the benefit of not only me, but the entire world! The entire humankind, animalkind, botanicalkind and whole of ecosystem! Aliens? hmm... You think i can knock down one?
I hereby sincerely apologize to the p00r working lady whose left leg was imprinted with my tyre's black mark. Is it grease? Sorry to spoil your day right from the beginning of a bright morning. Just your bad luck to meet someone full of bad luck whose brakes are spoilt and whose feet are too short to cause enough resistance on the ground in time to stop. Hope your luck will get better. And remember, wheels have no eyes, no brains and no FEET!!
Olritez! After all these years.... I FINALLY have an ACCIDENT!!!
That's right. And the victim is not me.
-.-" zzzZZzzz
All due to faulty brakes. So people, please bear in mind. Do not always think wheels have eyes. Even if they do, they don't have legs. They can't stop on their own even if they know they are going to bang into you. And even worse, some drivers can't even control them properly. Don't suspect. It's me.
That's why i NEVER want to learn driving.
This is for the benefit of not only me, but the entire world! The entire humankind, animalkind, botanicalkind and whole of ecosystem! Aliens? hmm... You think i can knock down one?
I hereby sincerely apologize to the p00r working lady whose left leg was imprinted with my tyre's black mark. Is it grease? Sorry to spoil your day right from the beginning of a bright morning. Just your bad luck to meet someone full of bad luck whose brakes are spoilt and whose feet are too short to cause enough resistance on the ground in time to stop. Hope your luck will get better. And remember, wheels have no eyes, no brains and no FEET!!
Monday, August 15, 2005
+ ChInA TrIp pHoToS +
+ ChInA TrIp pHoToS +
Well well!! I finally managed to scan some pics I took from myChina
Since I'm the cameraman for the whole trip, obviously you can't find me in it! Hahaa.... Actually I'm more interested in the sceneries and buildings and culture of China... blah blah blah... of course i also took pics of people, but in my haste to scan the pics and trying not to trouble my friend too much in her house, I only chose these few... or rather, she chose for me.... Coz I was too busy watching some shuai ges le.. wahaha... Hence she/me missed out some other nicer ones which i personally like. But nvm! I like these too!! Here goes....
A trip toGuangzhou
This is a random image i took when we stopped to visit some factory.
D0N't sT0P!! aSk fOr m0Re!!
Shuai bu shuai?? Jealous bah?? =P
Nice ? See the little purple flowers? It's Zi Wei flowers!! You know Ziwei Ge-ge in 'Huan Zhu Ge Ge'? Yups! She's named after this flower! Imagine this is the 'Zi Wei Yuan'! A garden full of purple blossoms!!! I really gasped out loud when we drove into it!!
This little island in the middle of alake
Are you superstitious? At the time when this pic was taken, very dark clouds covered everywhere, all but above thistemple of Buddha
And now! MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE! I seriously don't know where is this place. My tour coach simply stopped at a junction and I merely looked to my right out of the window, saw this place and immediately dug my camera out to snap this shot. And guess what? Right after my snap, the coach went on its way!! It turned out to be one of the best, as in the resolution and such.
How about this?
Well well!! I finally managed to scan some pics I took from my
Since I'm the cameraman for the whole trip, obviously you can't find me in it! Hahaa.... Actually I'm more interested in the sceneries and buildings and culture of China... blah blah blah... of course i also took pics of people, but in my haste to scan the pics and trying not to trouble my friend too much in her house, I only chose these few... or rather, she chose for me.... Coz I was too busy watching some shuai ges le.. wahaha... Hence she/me missed out some other nicer ones which i personally like. But nvm! I like these too!! Here goes....
A trip to
This is a random image i took when we stopped to visit some factory.
D0N't sT0P!! aSk fOr m0Re!!
Shuai bu shuai?? Jealous bah?? =P
This little island in the middle of a
Are you superstitious? At the time when this pic was taken, very dark clouds covered everywhere, all but above this
And now! MY PERSONAL FAVOURITE! I seriously don't know where is this place. My tour coach simply stopped at a junction and I merely looked to my right out of the window, saw this place and immediately dug my camera out to snap this shot. And guess what? Right after my snap, the coach went on its way!! It turned out to be one of the best, as in the resolution and such.
How about this?
Can you get that feel I felt when I first saw it out of the window? That nostalgic feeling down a deserted lane?
~~ eNd ~~Tuesday, August 09, 2005
+ hAppI nAtI0nAl dAy +
+ hAppI nAtI0NaL dAy +
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! I love Singapore!!! I really do. The National Day Celebrations every year never fail to touch me. As I listen to the choir sing "Home" via tv, my mind couldn't help replaying lots of flashbacks, all those wonderful memories I had with my friends in Singapore, things I do, see, sing, say, which make me so proud being a Singaporean.
The first time I REALLY feel I'm a 100% Singaporean, when I feel I really belong to Singapore, when I feel I really love Singapore, is actually a few months ago when I went China, the first time outside Singapore via plane, which means, a place really far.
The moment I stepped foot on that foreign land, I'm beginning to miss home. Though everything reminded me of Singapore(even the tour guide said Guangzhou was modelled like Singapore), though everything there was cheaper, though the chinese were such friendly people, though it's clean and big and, yeah, the toilets have doors, I really prefer Singapore.
Why?
The main reason, which surprised even myself, is actually........ CURRY!!!! Oh my goodness!! I actually miss eating curry and hot stuff on just my fourth day there!! I thought I would love chinese food, because I'm a salty freak! I loves salty food, and that's what chinese food are famous for! Well, I did enjoy the food there, BUT i actually missed the curry smell and spicy taste back home!! That's when I realized, I'm really a Singaporean. The unqiue multi-racial culture was already fused into me the moment I was borned onto the land of Singapore. And besides curry, which I had for three consequtive days right after my return to make up for that 10 curry-less days, I missed
1) my family: though my mum was with me, but I still miss my beloved dad n bros, though irritating they might b at times
2) my friends to share my joy with: i left them back home missing me.. lolx... n one of my friends actually needed my help for something and I wasn't there for her.. so sorry... but we still managed to contact through sms, so it wasn't too bad
3) the language: Not that I'm really proud of Broken Singlish (note: Singlish is NOT equal to Broken English, so imagine Broken Singlish? Haiz!) but at least I can still understand and communicate. The people in Guangzhou all spoke Cantonese, which really pissed my off coz I REALLY don't understand! DUHZ!
4) the potable water: I'm not a fan of NEWater really, and I still can't bring myself to down one mouthful of it, but I'm so used to the water in Singapore, I always drink straight from the tap, to save the trouble of boiling the water of coz! yeah.. the act of a slacker... watever!! Anyway, in China, I don't even dare to drink BOILED water (i'm surprised I didn't get dehydrated, oh yah, I dranks lots of mineral water..)
Oh and there's a lot more. Okay, it's not that China is a bad place. It's really a very nice place, and there's also many areas which Singapore is not comparable to, but I just feel that Home still feels the best. And just those above are enough to fulfil the lyrics in chinese version of "Home"
......wo de jia... shou chang... wo de huan xi bei shang......
And guess what? When I saw Ah-du on the advertisement advertising about the "Uniquely Singapore" on the tv in China, I was so surprised and happy that I actually screamed for my mum to hurry come and see! And when I see Stephanie Sun's pic endorsed on a drink bottle in a supermart there, I was so excited that I bought the drink immediately! My happiness and reaction was even greater than when I saw F4's larger-than-life pepsi poster on the street! What I felt was like, Oh! It feels ssoooooo great to see a fellow Singaporean whom I know out here in this foreign place in the middle of nowhere, even though it's just a photo or image. I know it's a bit exaggerated, since I'm not even a crazy fan of Ah-du and Steph, and I don't know them in person, and the fact that I went to China with a tour of REAL Singaporeans, but I really feel consoled to 'see' the 2 of them in that lonely and friendless place. The sense of belonging. And I'm really proud of them, that their names actually reached out so far in Asia. That's probably why I felt so touched and my heart connected when the NDP showed a few clips of Singaporeans in foreign lands shouting out their best wishes for Singapore just now on tv. You can really feel.... that sense of belonging, that they really want to celebrate our nation's birthday with their families and friends back on our homeland.
This is the country, the place I truly belong, where I'm proud to be. Because only this unqiue place gives all the unique stuffs to the unique ME!
......shu yu zi ji... shu yu ni wo de tian di... you ai you meng you qing... hai you cheng zhang sui yue de dian di... jiao zhi wo wun xin yi ji......
Every year, I never fail to wear red tops on 8th and 9th Aug, whether I leave my house or not. I simply embask in my own joyous atmosphere of the national celebrations. Call it my imagination, my illusion or what, I can always see and feel... the air everywhere around me that is so dense with joy and happiness, the pride that WE, the citizens of Singapore, have come so far together! It's every Singaporean's birthday today!!! Hear!! Hear!!
Let's reach out for the sky, with wings we soar up high!!
As I watched the NDP just now, I really missed Rene. One may say, like I would in my earlier years, it's so silly to go there and squeeze with thousands of people and see tiny 'ants' moving around. But it's wrong! It's the atmosphere that makes the difference! I really missed that feeling. Rene, do you still remember how we cheered and waved our Singapore flags so madly, blocking everyone's view behind us, even though the whole block of them was like so still and quiet, making a fool out of ourselves and worrying if we would get battered to death? Hahaa... And how we sang the National Anthem at full attention and sang on top of our voices using diaphram and with so much emotions at the Singapore songs and in the end lost our voices?? And the pledge-making with such sincerity? How we waved at the President as he made his round as if he was some great superstar? How we made poor Kain sing and wave his flag though he was so paiseh? And the 'WOW' feeling as we watched the jets zooming past, the parachuters as they landed, oh! and the magnificent fireworks exploding, sprinkling the magical sparkles across the sky right on top of us!! Lolx...
They were all such fond memories.. National Day is like this, a day where families and friends gather to celebrate. Last year was with friends, this year with my family. For the first time in don't know how many months, my family finally sat down together for a meal as we watched the NDP on tv. It really reminded me of Chinese New Year.
Rene, it's okay if we can't get the tix this year and I'm sorry that you were down with flu... but nevermind! there's always next year, next next year, next next next year and more and more!! Singapore will go on forever and more!!!!!!
HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
( I got so excited watching the military vehicles and artillery parade that I might just join the Armed Forces after graduation after all!! =D )
Now, that's really something for every Singaporean to worry about. Hahaha!! =P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! I love Singapore!!! I really do. The National Day Celebrations every year never fail to touch me. As I listen to the choir sing "Home" via tv, my mind couldn't help replaying lots of flashbacks, all those wonderful memories I had with my friends in Singapore, things I do, see, sing, say, which make me so proud being a Singaporean.
The first time I REALLY feel I'm a 100% Singaporean, when I feel I really belong to Singapore, when I feel I really love Singapore, is actually a few months ago when I went China, the first time outside Singapore via plane, which means, a place really far.
The moment I stepped foot on that foreign land, I'm beginning to miss home. Though everything reminded me of Singapore(even the tour guide said Guangzhou was modelled like Singapore), though everything there was cheaper, though the chinese were such friendly people, though it's clean and big and, yeah, the toilets have doors, I really prefer Singapore.
Why?
The main reason, which surprised even myself, is actually........ CURRY!!!! Oh my goodness!! I actually miss eating curry and hot stuff on just my fourth day there!! I thought I would love chinese food, because I'm a salty freak! I loves salty food, and that's what chinese food are famous for! Well, I did enjoy the food there, BUT i actually missed the curry smell and spicy taste back home!! That's when I realized, I'm really a Singaporean. The unqiue multi-racial culture was already fused into me the moment I was borned onto the land of Singapore. And besides curry, which I had for three consequtive days right after my return to make up for that 10 curry-less days, I missed
1) my family: though my mum was with me, but I still miss my beloved dad n bros, though irritating they might b at times
2) my friends to share my joy with: i left them back home missing me.. lolx... n one of my friends actually needed my help for something and I wasn't there for her.. so sorry... but we still managed to contact through sms, so it wasn't too bad
3) the language: Not that I'm really proud of Broken Singlish (note: Singlish is NOT equal to Broken English, so imagine Broken Singlish? Haiz!) but at least I can still understand and communicate. The people in Guangzhou all spoke Cantonese, which really pissed my off coz I REALLY don't understand! DUHZ!
4) the potable water: I'm not a fan of NEWater really, and I still can't bring myself to down one mouthful of it, but I'm so used to the water in Singapore, I always drink straight from the tap, to save the trouble of boiling the water of coz! yeah.. the act of a slacker... watever!! Anyway, in China, I don't even dare to drink BOILED water (i'm surprised I didn't get dehydrated, oh yah, I dranks lots of mineral water..)
Oh and there's a lot more. Okay, it's not that China is a bad place. It's really a very nice place, and there's also many areas which Singapore is not comparable to, but I just feel that Home still feels the best. And just those above are enough to fulfil the lyrics in chinese version of "Home"
......wo de jia... shou chang... wo de huan xi bei shang......
And guess what? When I saw Ah-du on the advertisement advertising about the "Uniquely Singapore" on the tv in China, I was so surprised and happy that I actually screamed for my mum to hurry come and see! And when I see Stephanie Sun's pic endorsed on a drink bottle in a supermart there, I was so excited that I bought the drink immediately! My happiness and reaction was even greater than when I saw F4's larger-than-life pepsi poster on the street! What I felt was like, Oh! It feels ssoooooo great to see a fellow Singaporean whom I know out here in this foreign place in the middle of nowhere, even though it's just a photo or image. I know it's a bit exaggerated, since I'm not even a crazy fan of Ah-du and Steph, and I don't know them in person, and the fact that I went to China with a tour of REAL Singaporeans, but I really feel consoled to 'see' the 2 of them in that lonely and friendless place. The sense of belonging. And I'm really proud of them, that their names actually reached out so far in Asia. That's probably why I felt so touched and my heart connected when the NDP showed a few clips of Singaporeans in foreign lands shouting out their best wishes for Singapore just now on tv. You can really feel.... that sense of belonging, that they really want to celebrate our nation's birthday with their families and friends back on our homeland.
This is the country, the place I truly belong, where I'm proud to be. Because only this unqiue place gives all the unique stuffs to the unique ME!
......shu yu zi ji... shu yu ni wo de tian di... you ai you meng you qing... hai you cheng zhang sui yue de dian di... jiao zhi wo wun xin yi ji......
Every year, I never fail to wear red tops on 8th and 9th Aug, whether I leave my house or not. I simply embask in my own joyous atmosphere of the national celebrations. Call it my imagination, my illusion or what, I can always see and feel... the air everywhere around me that is so dense with joy and happiness, the pride that WE, the citizens of Singapore, have come so far together! It's every Singaporean's birthday today!!! Hear!! Hear!!
Let's reach out for the sky, with wings we soar up high!!
As I watched the NDP just now, I really missed Rene. One may say, like I would in my earlier years, it's so silly to go there and squeeze with thousands of people and see tiny 'ants' moving around. But it's wrong! It's the atmosphere that makes the difference! I really missed that feeling. Rene, do you still remember how we cheered and waved our Singapore flags so madly, blocking everyone's view behind us, even though the whole block of them was like so still and quiet, making a fool out of ourselves and worrying if we would get battered to death? Hahaa... And how we sang the National Anthem at full attention and sang on top of our voices using diaphram and with so much emotions at the Singapore songs and in the end lost our voices?? And the pledge-making with such sincerity? How we waved at the President as he made his round as if he was some great superstar? How we made poor Kain sing and wave his flag though he was so paiseh? And the 'WOW' feeling as we watched the jets zooming past, the parachuters as they landed, oh! and the magnificent fireworks exploding, sprinkling the magical sparkles across the sky right on top of us!! Lolx...
They were all such fond memories.. National Day is like this, a day where families and friends gather to celebrate. Last year was with friends, this year with my family. For the first time in don't know how many months, my family finally sat down together for a meal as we watched the NDP on tv. It really reminded me of Chinese New Year.
Rene, it's okay if we can't get the tix this year and I'm sorry that you were down with flu... but nevermind! there's always next year, next next year, next next next year and more and more!! Singapore will go on forever and more!!!!!!
HAPPY 40th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
( I got so excited watching the military vehicles and artillery parade that I might just join the Armed Forces after graduation after all!! =D )
Now, that's really something for every Singaporean to worry about. Hahaha!! =P
Thursday, July 21, 2005
+ sUcCeSs +
+ sUcCeSs +
When I'm done with collecting the answers to the question in the previous entry, I'm going to post the overall result. But now, I've come across one answer by a friend that i feel worth pondering about.
He said in ten years' time, he don't know what job or what position he would be holding, but he would definitely be very successful.
When asked how would he define 'successful', he replied that he don't know the specific words, but he would be someone whom others would think successful.
I decided to drop the topic because any probing would end up in a bottomless arguement. I find this answer quite.... hmm.... unusual, and in my own sense, pretty senseless.(No pun intended. It's just that answering is like as good as not.) But then again, it might not be so. That's why I think it's worth pondering.
I told my mum about this answer, and nonchalantly, she said,"That's good. Someone also said that before. And he is now the CEO of Creative Technologies company something."
Wow! Imagine my that friend being a multimillionaire ten years later!
But my question is: How is one deemed as being successful, by his own standards or because others think he is? (Note: this is not a qn about the definition of being successful. It is who deem you as one)
For me, so long as I feel that I'm a successful person, I don't care if others call me a failure. Similarly, if I feel lousy, even if the whole world worships me for being so successful, I won't consider myself as one at all. Because I am who I defines.By my own standards.
What about you?
When I'm done with collecting the answers to the question in the previous entry, I'm going to post the overall result. But now, I've come across one answer by a friend that i feel worth pondering about.
He said in ten years' time, he don't know what job or what position he would be holding, but he would definitely be very successful.
When asked how would he define 'successful', he replied that he don't know the specific words, but he would be someone whom others would think successful.
I decided to drop the topic because any probing would end up in a bottomless arguement. I find this answer quite.... hmm.... unusual, and in my own sense, pretty senseless.(No pun intended. It's just that answering is like as good as not.) But then again, it might not be so. That's why I think it's worth pondering.
I told my mum about this answer, and nonchalantly, she said,"That's good. Someone also said that before. And he is now the CEO of Creative Technologies company something."
Wow! Imagine my that friend being a multimillionaire ten years later!
But my question is: How is one deemed as being successful, by his own standards or because others think he is? (Note: this is not a qn about the definition of being successful. It is who deem you as one)
For me, so long as I feel that I'm a successful person, I don't care if others call me a failure. Similarly, if I feel lousy, even if the whole world worships me for being so successful, I won't consider myself as one at all. Because I am who I defines.By my own standards.
What about you?
Thursday, July 14, 2005
+ tEn yEaRs +
+ tEn yEaRs +
A quote from Eason's "Ten Years".
"......Ten years ago, I know you not. You don't belong to me,
and we remained strangers walking down the same old street.
Ten years later, we formed a friendship, with occasional nods and greets......"
Ten years. How many ten years does one have? Not a lot. Not more than ten. Well, maybe not, but seldom.
Many things can happen in ten years. The government would have changed twice. Terrorism may have been stamped out. London would have finished holding the Olympics.
For old friends, we had known each other for ten years, and counting. For some, we are GOING to reach ten years of friendship. For others, we'd just known each other. Can we even reach ten years?
It's a time of transition now, where some of us are going to the next stage of life, or on the verge of, or going to.....
So friends, people, males & females.....
please tell me.
Where do you see yourself in ten years' time?
P.S. I know this is a VERY common question, but this IS a serious one. Do think carefully and do not try to be funny. Thank you.
A quote from Eason's "Ten Years"
"......Ten years ago, I know you not. You don't belong to me,
and we remained strangers walking down the same old street.
Ten years later, we formed a friendship, with occasional nods and greets......"
Ten years. How many ten years does one have? Not a lot. Not more than ten. Well, maybe not, but seldom.
Many things can happen in ten years. The government would have changed twice. Terrorism may have been stamped out. London would have finished holding the Olympics.
For old friends, we had known each other for ten years, and counting. For some, we are GOING to reach ten years of friendship. For others, we'd just known each other. Can we even reach ten years?
It's a time of transition now, where some of us are going to the next stage of life, or on the verge of, or going to.....
So friends, people, males & females.....
please tell me.
Where do you see yourself in ten years' time?
P.S. I know this is a VERY common question, but this IS a serious one. Do think carefully and do not try to be funny. Thank you.
Friday, July 08, 2005
+ l0Ve tEsT +
+ l0Ve tEsT +
(P.S. tis is not a quiz! =P)
People always say, bing bian, aka the love between a couple will be put to test once the guy needs to go for N.S. That's one stage. There's another stage: when the boyfriend is still studying and the girlfriend already working.
Similarity 1: In both cases, the environment which the guy and girl are soaked in everyday for a long period is almost totally different.
Similarity 2: For many stories I've heard, it was always refered to as the girl being at fault, that she changed and left for some other guys, "richer or stronger" as deemed by the "victims"(which are always the guys).
Definition: Breaking up is an agreement between the 2 involved individuals to part their own ways after deciding they could no longer be happy together.
Question: In a break up, there may be unwilling parties.
Does it mean all unwilling parties are victims of circumstances?
What went wrong? Who went wrong? Where had gone wrong?
(From a female's perspective)
[Note: I said "a female", it don't represent the whole female population]
Problem 1: Commitment. In a relationship, perhaps it's essential for both parties to spare time for each other. It's a role they HAVE to play ever since they agree to be with each other. In the both above cases, due to the different environment they are in, it is very difficult to avoid a clash in their free time. Even if they can manage to squeeze that little time, the energy level may not be full. They could be tired and such n such, bogged down by the stuffs of their everyday lives. One of them may start to imagine things, like perhaps the other party are no longer interested in their lives because they simply don't sound interested. Who knows? the poor listener may be too tired to "SOUND" interested, yet at the same time was still listening earnestly.
What if at a particular time when one needs the other the most, but that other is unable to be there? What if there are many particular times like that? This is when the 3rd party comes in so easily. Still, it's no one's fault.
Problem 2: When a girl goes on to study while the guy goes to NS, she gets to see and learn SO many new things! And when she just starts out to work, she'll learn even MORE new things! Could be good, could be bad things. But whatever it is, it widens her horizons. She learns, she grow, she mature. There's more perspectives.
Guys, on the other hand, lags. Generally, their mentality stopped at the level where they just go into NS. During the whole period, it was constant. For some, their mentality went haywire due to some problems or sudden surge of agitation. They got too obsessed with earning loads of money and the paper chase dunno what, etc, that they got so inferior, and their ego shot skyhigh. They could no longer bear their gf being "better" than them in their sense, and started "abusing" her emotionally.
For those who's metality remained constant, only continued growing after NS. For some it's even worse. Even after they finished NS, their mentality still remain CONSTANT!! Simply put, they are twenty over years old with only the EQ of a teenager. Sighzzz.....
If it's going to take a loooong time before their mentality paths can cross again, and it's obvious the communication has long broken down, why should one hold on to it? In the both cases of the guys whose mentality stayed or went haywire, is it fair to make the girl slow down or even stop and wait for the guy who might never come round? And for the girls who grew, are they the ones who really changed, or is it the guys who go stagnant too much that they are no longer who the girls used to like long ago? Love is only that much. Without constant communication and care and (fertilizers n water n sunlight n such), how long can a relationship really substain? Call it being practical or realistic. But the problem is, if the feeling is no longer there, isn't it better to let go?
Note: Of course there are also many couples who successfully substained their relationships through storms and earthquakes , fire and floods, all the way and walk down that red aisle together and live happily ever after. That's probably because they had managed to find that BALANCE in their lives which is a fine line between everything.
Congratulations!
*A salute to those of you*
(P.S. tis is not a quiz! =P)
People always say, bing bian, aka the love between a couple will be put to test once the guy needs to go for N.S. That's one stage. There's another stage: when the boyfriend is still studying and the girlfriend already working.
Similarity 1: In both cases, the environment which the guy and girl are soaked in everyday for a long period is almost totally different.
Similarity 2: For many stories I've heard, it was always refered to as the girl being at fault, that she changed and left for some other guys, "richer or stronger" as deemed by the "victims"(which are always the guys).
Definition: Breaking up is an agreement between the 2 involved individuals to part their own ways after deciding they could no longer be happy together.
Question: In a break up, there may be unwilling parties.
Does it mean all unwilling parties are victims of circumstances?
What went wrong? Who went wrong? Where had gone wrong?
(From a female's perspective)
[Note: I said "a female", it don't represent the whole female population]
Problem 1: Commitment. In a relationship, perhaps it's essential for both parties to spare time for each other. It's a role they HAVE to play ever since they agree to be with each other. In the both above cases, due to the different environment they are in, it is very difficult to avoid a clash in their free time. Even if they can manage to squeeze that little time, the energy level may not be full. They could be tired and such n such, bogged down by the stuffs of their everyday lives. One of them may start to imagine things, like perhaps the other party are no longer interested in their lives because they simply don't sound interested. Who knows? the poor listener may be too tired to "SOUND" interested, yet at the same time was still listening earnestly.
What if at a particular time when one needs the other the most, but that other is unable to be there? What if there are many particular times like that? This is when the 3rd party comes in so easily. Still, it's no one's fault.
Problem 2: When a girl goes on to study while the guy goes to NS, she gets to see and learn SO many new things! And when she just starts out to work, she'll learn even MORE new things! Could be good, could be bad things. But whatever it is, it widens her horizons. She learns, she grow, she mature. There's more perspectives.
Guys, on the other hand, lags. Generally, their mentality stopped at the level where they just go into NS. During the whole period, it was constant. For some, their mentality went haywire due to some problems or sudden surge of agitation. They got too obsessed with earning loads of money and the paper chase dunno what, etc, that they got so inferior, and their ego shot skyhigh. They could no longer bear their gf being "better" than them in their sense, and started "abusing" her emotionally.
For those who's metality remained constant, only continued growing after NS. For some it's even worse. Even after they finished NS, their mentality still remain CONSTANT!! Simply put, they are twenty over years old with only the EQ of a teenager. Sighzzz.....
If it's going to take a loooong time before their mentality paths can cross again, and it's obvious the communication has long broken down, why should one hold on to it? In the both cases of the guys whose mentality stayed or went haywire, is it fair to make the girl slow down or even stop and wait for the guy who might never come round? And for the girls who grew, are they the ones who really changed, or is it the guys who go stagnant too much that they are no longer who the girls used to like long ago? Love is only that much. Without constant communication and care and (fertilizers n water n sunlight n such), how long can a relationship really substain? Call it being practical or realistic. But the problem is, if the feeling is no longer there, isn't it better to let go?
Note: Of course there are also many couples who successfully substained their relationships through storms and earthquakes , fire and floods, all the way and walk down that red aisle together and live happily ever after. That's probably because they had managed to find that BALANCE in their lives which is a fine line between everything.
Congratulations!
*A salute to those of you*
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