+ h0w tRuE +

I am truly passionate.

You're excited about life and in touch with yourself and nature. Tell me, do I have this straight?

VIRTUES: You appreciate humor like none other. Puns might even spark laughter in you (TEHY R FUNNI). You seek adventure and connection with your surroundings. You seek friends who will not only share laughs with you but actually form a deep bond of trust and empathy beneath the surface. You look for adventure and courage in people, and variation is necessary to keep you under control. You see yourself as multi-faceted, so you need people who can see you in your many lights. You're constantly trying to figure yourself out while analyzing the people around you. Silly, silly people.

ASPIRATIONS: You can't decide what you want to be yet, but you know you want it to be adventures and interesting, with constant changes. You don't know what love will do for you yet, but it's competing with adventure for a place in your heart. An internal conflict has begun: can you be a successful worker, lover, and parent all at once?

QUIRKS: Noise of any sort is irritating when you're in the mood. Smacking gum, loud chewing, humming- it's about as pleasing as bodily noises. You dislike emaciated people because of jealousy and just plain disgust. You're a procrastinator but a hard worker, too.

FACTORS: You need constant attention and support. You're high-maintnence, but a great, reliable friend. Nature needs you and you need nature; it's helped thus far, so keep in touch with the outside world.

FUTURE: Who knows! You absolutely need constant change, so vacationing is surely in the cards. Will you settle down or not? Love will find you eventually, as it does to everyone. Will you choose the sweet home life or the rewarding busy-bee life?

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+ pR|dE & PrEjUd|cE +

How long has it been since the last time i caught a romance movie, that is convincing enough to touch me? When is the last movie that shows no kissing, no lusting, but simply the pure attraction of the heart and mind?
Never Been Kissed.
Wow... a looong time ago. Probably the reason why i seldom watch romance comedies is because i believe most romantic movies tell the same tale, nothing out of the ordinary. A man fell for a woman, and vice versa, all within 2 hours. What happened in between, not truly convincing.

Then what is it that persuaded me, to take half a day off today and rush back, just in time to catch this movie whose screening shall end this thursday?
No, not my brother(though he has a part to play) who was so captivated that he bought the book immediately after he watched it, and which i had almost finished reading.

Pride And Prejudice.

Truly, thoroughly, totally romantic. The way this movie is filmed, the soft music as accompaniment, the picturesque scenes, the humour within, the beautiful actresses and charming actors. And the plot. Perfect! It simply captures my senses in all ways, and touches me enough to make my heart flutter. But if i want to use one word to describe this movie, 'perfect' it is not. It's 'romantic'! I'll hate to repeat myself, but i simply can't help it. I HAVE to say this again! This movie is Truly, Thoroughly, Totally ROMANTIC! Sigh...

That's right. What else better to end this movie but with a deep sigh?

Years ago, if i'd seen this movie, i'll go,"Sighzz... When will i ever meet someone as charming who could possibly fall in love with me, just like the male and female lead?"
Yet now, I surprise myself, by going,"Sighzz... Even if i meet someone as charming, would i even fall for him? Even if he falls for me?"

I wonder, is my heart going dead? I felt like i could never love someone. 'Love' is too strong a word. I don't think i can ever do that. Has Reality finally caught up with me that I'm finally growing up, out of my fairytale fantasy world, that i no longer believe in 'love'? Or am I sp hopelessly trapped in my world of fantasy forever, where i'll passionately love the man of my dreams IN my dreams rather than OUT of it? Perhaps besides being a nun, i'll either end up like Charlotte Lucas, who'll marry a man solely because he has a stable income and able to give me a home, or stay single forever, enjoying the carefreeness of being single.
I'd rather the latter.

But even if i don't have the fortune, or misfortune, to be in love, I'll still be pleased to know that true love still does exist, even if it's just in the movies.

'Happily ever after' is a reality, not a belief.

Maybe that's the real reason why i took so much trouble just to catch this movie. Just as curry adds flavor to rice, what's a little hassle compared to what a little 'romance', once in a blue moon, can add to my life?
It's definitely worth it. ^^

+ wHaT's mY pErFeCt mAjOr - Qu|z +

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence. Philosophy 92% Psychology 92% Journalism 92% Sociology 92% Dance 83% Theater 83% Art 83% Mathematics 75% Anthropology 75% English 75% Engineering 75% Biology 67% Linguistics 67% Chemistry 58% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

Funny. Considering I'm majoring in Engineering now.... 75%.... Not that bad a choice lah hoh? ^^

+ cUrSe +

I'm officially under a curse. Not that I'm not under others, but this particular one is the most subtle yet destructive. Because for the past 50 years or more till now, it has already adversely affected 3 generations. I've seen how the curse had worked on the previous 2 generations, and seen how one of them is trying so hard to break it. But i realised, the more the one tried to break it, the more this person fell for the curse.

Now, I'm noticing a similar trend involving the next generation. And that is me. And for the past 20 years or so, I'd also been trying to break the curse unknowingly. And yet, I've fallen deeper and deeper. It's only till recently, that i put 2 + 2 together, to make 4, and found this pattern in the curse.

I'm suddenly afraid. This curse, is like a disease. If not treated properly, it can be passed on to the 4th generation, the 5th, and so on.... Once this happens, it will be irreversible. I definitely do NOT want this curse to carry on. I've seen how the previous 2 generation suffered. They had fallen under it so much that i know they can never break it. The whole mission of breaking this curse now can only depend on me. But with my force alone, am i able to break it before it extends to the next generation?

It's time now to think about how to thoroughly break this curse and destroy it. If i had struggled for 20 years to no avail, doesn't it mean this method is WRONG? Should i try a new approach instead? But what? How?

And another question to think about. What if i am really unable to find a way to effectively eradicate this curse forever? This answer, however, is pretty easy.
There will not be a 4th generation. Then, I shall absorb this curse, and die along with it.

+ g00d 0r bAd dReAm? +

Just had a bad dream with a good ending....

Went to China with my whole family, including my Ah Ma, Eldest Uncle n family, and Little Aunt n family. Followed a tour package, but that was terribly organized. The whole place looks like Malaysia, not so much of sightseeing, but coach sitting. Imagine sitting in a small coach the whole day the whole time and getting down just to go toilet? That's what's the whole trip is about, no purpose at all. More like a trip to nowhere.

Stayed in an ulu hotel. Nearing the end of the trip, one morning, my elder brother suddenly disappeared. We wondered where he'd gone. And then we received a call, for a ransom. Ransom? My brother was kidnapped right in the middle of China?! This is terrible... i remembered in the 'Principles of Law', our country's law has no effect in other countries, and we could only seek help from the Chinese authorities. But aren't they famous for corruption? And worse still, even if they were not corrupt, it's really hard to help us since China is so big! Okay, i know i'm mean, but i couldn't trust the securities there.

Anyway, we reported the case and they did say they would help, but apparently nothing is done. We paid the ransom, but my brother NEVER return!! Was he silenced? We all panicked. Yes, in this dream, it was so real i panicked! How can this happen? As in how can the kidnappers do this even after we paid the ransom? I remembered the Huang Na case... How a chinese girl met a mishap in Singapore. I believe if it's a Singaporean meeting a mishap in China, it wouldn't create much impact on their people at all! We returned to Singapore, hoping to seek help from our own people. I was so scared, even when i lie in my bed after our return, i keep thinking would my brother appear in my dream? Like what Huang Na did in her Aunt's dream? Then i was hoping he would come tell me where's he in China. But i realised it's so hard. How can his spirit fly so far back home to tell us where is he? Anyway if this really happens, it means he's really killed! And guess what? He did appear! Halfway through telling me though, i told myself this isn't true. Why?

In reality, he's right there sleeping in his room! How can his spirit come tell me he's dead in China?
And so, i forced myself to wake up. ZZzz.

But i fell asleep again. And the dream continued.

No news is good news. We had a call from the Chinese authorities that there's no concrete evidence that my brother is dead. In fact they had some clues that he's still alive. So we all eagerly went back to China. We went to the place where they suspect to be the place of kidnapping. AND WE FOUND MY BROTHER! Seems like they are quite efficient!

The kidnappers were nowhere to be seen, but there's my brother, alive and kicking! except a bit weak. He told us how he'd escaped. He was on this van, badly beaten up. Then when the kidnappers were away for a while, he called for help softly. Some kind souls saved him but he took a few days to recover properly, and also to hide from the kidnappers. that's why he only appeared now. Guess my relief? i was totally overjoyed loh!

I realised i still do care for my family members. Though i may begrudge them for the things they do to me, though i may be mean to them, though i may even 'hate' them at some point of time, i still love them. I want them to be alive and well and kicking.

Haiz.. so much for internal struggles. My subconcious mind will always lead me out.



Anyway, bro, if u happen to see tis, remember to take care while in China wor. Esp when you'll be going there for so long...